Schizoaffective Disorder

I was not sure what to choose for an “S” word, but this disorder affects my whole life. Also, most people have never heard of it. Schizoaffective is basically a combination of a thought disorder, like schizophrenia and a mood disorder, like bipolar. There is controversy about the diagnosis. It can resemble bipolar with psychotic…

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Neurotransmitters

I don’t understand them well, but neurotransmitters rule my life. Too much dopamine and I get psychotic. Too little serotonin and I am depressed. Along with others like glutamate it is a delicate balance I take medications and supplements to help restore the balance. They seem to be working. If only they did not come…

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Money, money, money

Continuing the alphabet game with the letter M. I worry about Money. I imagine that is common. When I was psychotic I would spend and donate to causes because voices told me I should. It could have been worse, but I was isolating so I did not have a lot of spending opportunities. I remember…

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Energy

I wish I had more energy. I try to make the most of it when I do. Usually, I am fatigued. I have sleep apnea, which is helped by a dental appliance but I don’t feel rested in the morning. I also take a number of medications, including an antipsychotic. The ones I tried have…

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You May Not Be a Match

I was removed from the bone marrow registry when I updated my health information. They sent me an email saying they have volunteers and it was a safety issue. I didn’t think about it until someone mentioned they were turned down to donate blood because they have schizophrenia. It is not the medications we take…

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Mothering and Mental illness

Originally posted on Psych Central https://blogs.psychcentral.com/triple-winner/2017/03/parenting-and-mental-illness/ It is natural to wonder if you are a “good enough” mother. This can be amplified with mental illness. My children were ages 2 and 4 when I had a psychotic break. I was hospitalized twice that year After that, I needed help doing basic tasks for a while.…

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Coping With Schizoaffective Disorder

Originally published Psych Central https://blogs.psychcentral.com/triple-winner/2017/03/coping-with-my-mental-health-symptoms/ With schizoaffective disorder and social anxiety, I have a number of different types of symptoms to cope with. For me, psychotic symptoms can be the hardest to deal with. The first thing I turn to is medication. I have tried a few of the newer atypical anti-psychotics and fortunately, I…

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Breathe

Not long ago, I volunteered at a state conference for NAMI, the National Alliance on Mental Illness. I was able to see a few speakers throughout the event. One lecture I went to was on schizophrenia. I was very interested since I have a thought disorder (schizoaffective disorder). The psychiatrist speaking was a good speaker,…

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Double Whammy

I wanted to use the expression “The Best of Both Worlds” but Michael D Crawford*1 already used that to describe schizoaffective disorder. It is a combination of a thought disorder like schizophrenia, and a mood disorder like bipolar disorder, but has a quality of it’s own. *if you haven’t read his essays on schizoaffective disorder,…

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