Dysfunction Junction

My father had an undiagnosed mental illness, probably bipolar, but I did not know that at the time. He was just a moody, raging, jerk. People knew but no one wants to interfere. I remember we had an uncle who was physically abusive to his kids, maybe his wife, I don’t know. Everyone knew about…

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Quiet

I like places that are peaceful and quiet. I would rather be alone than at a party. When I was younger, I would barely speak. They called me shy. I have social anxiety. Now, I can speak in front of groups, although I still shake, but it took a lot of work. I am typically…

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Ambivalence about alcohol and HAMS

I am in a stage of ambivalence about drinking. I don’t know if I want to be 100% sober, but I don’t want to have the negatives from alcohol. I did a cost benefit analysis, but still am unsure. Health-wise, mental stability-wise, employment-wise I should at least only drink in moderation. The main things I…

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Distorted Thinking and Urges for Alcohol

  Originally posted in Psych Central https://blogs.psychcentral.com/triple-winner/2017/05/distorted-thinking-and-urges-for-alcohol/ I have abstained from drinking alcohol for 6 months. Day to day, I rarely think about it. I go to weekly meetings and have tools. But, occasionally I get tempted. I went to a restaurant where the drinks were flowing and they looked good. But, I just looked.…

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Trusting Your Moods With Schizoaffective Disorder

First published Psych Central https://blogs.psychcentral.com/triple-winner/2017/03/trusting-your-moods-with-schizoaffective-disorder/ I have a thought and mood disorder called schizoaffective disorder. It is similar to bipolar disorder, in that I have mood swings with periods of mania and depression. When I was treated for my first severe manic episode I was heavily sedated and slowly titrated down on the medications. When…

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Coping With Schizoaffective Disorder

Originally published Psych Central https://blogs.psychcentral.com/triple-winner/2017/03/coping-with-my-mental-health-symptoms/ With schizoaffective disorder and social anxiety, I have a number of different types of symptoms to cope with. For me, psychotic symptoms can be the hardest to deal with. The first thing I turn to is medication. I have tried a few of the newer atypical anti-psychotics and fortunately, I…

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