Inner Demons

I have shame about past behavior. I am not ready to disclose to anyone. I have a therapist but am not able to tell. I won’t repeat or get in that situation again. I don’t know if any or all is related to mental illness. Probably some I lied, sometimes for no reason. I did…

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Never lose your sense of Wonder

It was hard to choose a W word. I thought of water or wisdom, but am going with Wonder. I am in awe of nature and it’s many wonders. I am curious and wonder about many things. I have never seen any of the 7 Wonders of the world (The Seven Wonders of the Ancient World : Great Pyramid…

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T is for tagline

What would an Orange County housewife be without a tagline. I am a Bravo TV fan and watch the housewife shows. I am having trouble coming up with anything original. There are a few quotes I like. “Nobody realizes that some people expend tremendous energy merely to be normal.” Camus or “Of all the things…

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Quiet

I like places that are peaceful and quiet. I would rather be alone than at a party. When I was younger, I would barely speak. They called me shy. I have social anxiety. Now, I can speak in front of groups, although I still shake, but it took a lot of work. I am typically…

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Neurotransmitters

I don’t understand them well, but neurotransmitters rule my life. Too much dopamine and I get psychotic. Too little serotonin and I am depressed. Along with others like glutamate it is a delicate balance I take medications and supplements to help restore the balance. They seem to be working. If only they did not come…

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I value my Family

Continuing the alphabet game with the letter F. I have issues with my family of origin, but my little family (husband and 2 children + our dog) is very important to me. Thankfully, we are all doing well. I worried about how having a mental illness would affect my children, but they are grown now…

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D is for Dog

Raider, my walking antidepressant helps keep me sane.  He needs walks so I have to get out. He is someone to come home to until the rest of my family gets here. He follows me around, wants to be in the same room as me. He is cuddly and cute. He has his own issues…

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