I won’t pretend to know what Nietzsche meant by “the abyss gazes into you”. The quote came to mind as I feel like I am at the edge of an abyss, gazing into the void. I feel empty. I am ashamed of who I am. If people knew who I really am they would turn … Continue reading The Abyss
I feel like a sham i tell people coping skills, but I have trouble doing them myself. My therapist told me to try mindfulness. I know what it is. I recommend it. But, my mind spins so much, i can't be "mindful" i have trouble breathing, cbt is out the window, i can't seem … Continue reading Hypocrite much?
I have not been feeling well. Depressed and anxious, a little paranoid. I decided to go to a support group. I was hoping I would feel better, sometimes I feel worse afterwards. Lately, I have been getting agitated and frustrated during support group meetings. I am not sure why. I wasn't sure if i should … Continue reading Sometimes 80% understanding is enough
I don't know if anyone else is like this, but I have trouble knowing how I feel. I knew I was miserable and anxious, but until my therapist said I was depressed I did not notice. Someone was trying to help me and asked what I get up for and my immediate response was "obligations". … Continue reading Depression sucks
Originally published PsychCentral.com link There is a hashtag trending on twitter: #AncientAbledProverbs, started by @HijaDe2Madre. It is about things abled people say to the disabled, often unthinking, that can be hurtful or ignorant. These could be physical or mental, visible or invisible disabilities. It struck a chord with me. People have said some of these … Continue reading Disabilities: What Not To Say
Originally posted on PsychCentral https://blogs.psychcentral.com/triple-winner/2017/06/suicidal-thoughts-depression-and-13-reasons-why/ I watched “13 Reasons Why” recently and it got me thinking about my own suicidal thoughts. (I am trying not to spoil it too much, but if you are waiting to watch it you may want to hold off reading) I was an unhappy teen and had some suicidal thoughts … Continue reading Suicidal Thoughts, Depression and 13 Reasons Why
I recently watched the Netflix series "13 Reasons Why". If you haven't heard of it, it is about a teenage girl who commits suicide. I don't have a well-thought out analysis. It brings up many topics and I have no one to discuss them with. I have not read other writings on the series yet. … Continue reading 13 Reasons Why (thoughts)