T is for tagline

What would an Orange County housewife be without a tagline. I am a Bravo TV fan and watch the housewife shows. I am having trouble coming up with anything original. There are a few quotes I like. “Nobody realizes that some people expend tremendous energy merely to be normal.” Camus or “Of all the things…

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Schizoaffective Disorder

I was not sure what to choose for an “S” word, but this disorder affects my whole life. Also, most people have never heard of it. Schizoaffective is basically a combination of a thought disorder, like schizophrenia and a mood disorder, like bipolar. There is controversy about the diagnosis. It can resemble bipolar with psychotic…

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Quiet

I like places that are peaceful and quiet. I would rather be alone than at a party. When I was younger, I would barely speak. They called me shy. I have social anxiety. Now, I can speak in front of groups, although I still shake, but it took a lot of work. I am typically…

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Neurotransmitters

I don’t understand them well, but neurotransmitters rule my life. Too much dopamine and I get psychotic. Too little serotonin and I am depressed. Along with others like glutamate it is a delicate balance I take medications and supplements to help restore the balance. They seem to be working. If only they did not come…

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A Doodle of How I Feel

I am not good at drawing, but I doodled a picture of how I feel.  It is me with my hands on my ears with thoughts racing a million miles a minute. Yelling Stop in my head. But, to the world around me, I seem fine.

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The Gift

I go to a support group for people with mood disorders.  Moods are part of schizoaffective disorder. The moderator likes to refer to our illness as a ‘gift’. Like we have special powers. He believes he is more creative, has deeper feelings, and I don’t know what else. He even said he would not take…

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The Stigma of Co-Occurring Disorders

In my opinion, this is my best yet 🙂 Originally published on Psych Central https://blogs.psychcentral.com/triple-winner/2017/03/the-stigma-of-co-occurring-disorders/ There is a great deal of stigma attached with both mental illnesses and addictions. That is one reason I talk about my experiences. So, others won’t feel alone, and, to put a face to these conditions. It is scary to…

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Mothering and Mental illness

Originally posted on Psych Central https://blogs.psychcentral.com/triple-winner/2017/03/parenting-and-mental-illness/ It is natural to wonder if you are a “good enough” mother. This can be amplified with mental illness. My children were ages 2 and 4 when I had a psychotic break. I was hospitalized twice that year After that, I needed help doing basic tasks for a while.…

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Trusting Your Moods With Schizoaffective Disorder

First published Psych Central https://blogs.psychcentral.com/triple-winner/2017/03/trusting-your-moods-with-schizoaffective-disorder/ I have a thought and mood disorder called schizoaffective disorder. It is similar to bipolar disorder, in that I have mood swings with periods of mania and depression. When I was treated for my first severe manic episode I was heavily sedated and slowly titrated down on the medications. When…

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Coping With Schizoaffective Disorder

Originally published Psych Central https://blogs.psychcentral.com/triple-winner/2017/03/coping-with-my-mental-health-symptoms/ With schizoaffective disorder and social anxiety, I have a number of different types of symptoms to cope with. For me, psychotic symptoms can be the hardest to deal with. The first thing I turn to is medication. I have tried a few of the newer atypical anti-psychotics and fortunately, I…

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