I am not good at drawing, but I doodled a picture of how I feel. It is me with my hands on my ears with thoughts racing a million miles a minute. Yelling Stop in my head. But, to the world around me, I seem fine.
I go to a support group for people with mood disorders. Moods are part of schizoaffective disorder. The moderator likes to refer to our illness as a 'gift'. Like we have special powers. He believes he is more creative, has deeper feelings, and I don't know what else. He even said he would not take … Continue reading The Gift
In my opinion, this is my best yet 🙂 Originally published on Psych Central https://blogs.psychcentral.com/triple-winner/2017/03/the-stigma-of-co-occurring-disorders/ There is a great deal of stigma attached with both mental illnesses and addictions. That is one reason I talk about my experiences. So, others won’t feel alone, and, to put a face to these conditions. It is scary to … Continue reading The Stigma of Co-Occurring Disorders
Originally posted on Psych Central https://blogs.psychcentral.com/triple-winner/2017/03/parenting-and-mental-illness/ It is natural to wonder if you are a "good enough" mother. This can be amplified with mental illness. My children were ages 2 and 4 when I had a psychotic break. I was hospitalized twice that year After that, I needed help doing basic tasks for a while. … Continue reading Mothering and Mental illness
First published Psych Central https://blogs.psychcentral.com/triple-winner/2017/03/trusting-your-moods-with-schizoaffective-disorder/ I have a thought and mood disorder called schizoaffective disorder. It is similar to bipolar disorder, in that I have mood swings with periods of mania and depression. When I was treated for my first severe manic episode I was heavily sedated and slowly titrated down on the medications. When … Continue reading Trusting Your Moods With Schizoaffective Disorder
Originally published Psych Central https://blogs.psychcentral.com/triple-winner/2017/03/coping-with-my-mental-health-symptoms/ With schizoaffective disorder and social anxiety, I have a number of different types of symptoms to cope with. For me, psychotic symptoms can be the hardest to deal with. The first thing I turn to is medication. I have tried a few of the newer atypical anti-psychotics and fortunately, I … Continue reading Coping With Schizoaffective Disorder
Originally posted on Medium Note: I know this is a controversial post. I am open to discussion. I am not against any of these laws, I just don't like being presented as a problem. I have a mental illness. It is a scary one that starts with schizo… and is a thought and mood disorder. … Continue reading Don’t Use Me As A Pawn
I am blogging for Psych Central. I have published 2 posts so far. Shameless plug: https://blogs.psychcentral.com/triple-winner/ It is about schizoaffective disorder and alcoholism. I am supposed to write about 2 posts/week. Did I mention I am really insecure and worry a lot and am a bundle of nerves???? I am so afraid I am … Continue reading What Did I Get Myself Into?
Not long ago, I volunteered at a state conference for NAMI, the National Alliance on Mental Illness. I was able to see a few speakers throughout the event. One lecture I went to was on schizophrenia. I was very interested since I have a thought disorder (schizoaffective disorder). The psychiatrist speaking was a good speaker, … Continue reading Breathe
I wanted to use the expression “The Best of Both Worlds” but Michael D Crawford*1 already used that to describe schizoaffective disorder. It is a combination of a thought disorder like schizophrenia, and a mood disorder like bipolar disorder, but has a quality of it’s own. *if you haven’t read his essays on schizoaffective disorder, … Continue reading Double Whammy