I am not good at drawing, but I doodled a picture of how I feel. It is me with my hands on my ears with thoughts racing a million miles a minute. Yelling Stop in my head. But, to the world around me, I seem fine.
I was removed from the bone marrow registry when I updated my health information. They sent me an email saying they have volunteers and it was a safety issue. I didn’t think about it until someone mentioned they were turned down to donate blood because they have schizophrenia. It is not the medications we take … Continue reading You May Not Be a Match
In my last post I talked about my childhood and how could my parents have thought that was an okay environment. They thought they were superior to others, even. I know everyone has flaws and maybe combined they had very poor judgement and blind spots. They weren't intentionally so hurtful. I do want to find … Continue reading Working Towards a Breakthrough
Originally published PsychCentral https://blogs.psychcentral.com/triple-winner/2017/07/my-story-of-forgiveness-and-mental-illness/ My mother came to visit recently. We have a past issue between us, that I have not been able to forgive. It has to do with when my brother was very symptomatic with a mental illness during my teen years. I have avoided talking about it. She always seems to want … Continue reading My Story of Forgiveness
I was recently working on a blog post about forgiving my mother about past resentments. (I will post it here soon). When I showed it to a few people they made comments that it was too harsh and that I sounded bitter. I had attempted to find compassion, but somehow in trying to explain "my … Continue reading Learning to Forgive
Originally published PsychCentral.com link There is a hashtag trending on twitter: #AncientAbledProverbs, started by @HijaDe2Madre. It is about things abled people say to the disabled, often unthinking, that can be hurtful or ignorant. These could be physical or mental, visible or invisible disabilities. It struck a chord with me. People have said some of these … Continue reading Disabilities: What Not To Say
Originally posted on PsychCentral https://blogs.psychcentral.com/triple-winner/2017/06/suicidal-thoughts-depression-and-13-reasons-why/ I watched “13 Reasons Why” recently and it got me thinking about my own suicidal thoughts. (I am trying not to spoil it too much, but if you are waiting to watch it you may want to hold off reading) I was an unhappy teen and had some suicidal thoughts … Continue reading Suicidal Thoughts, Depression and 13 Reasons Why