So many good “L” words

Laughter, life, listen. I am choosing Love I love my family. If it is possible, I may tell them too often that I love them. My husband is wonderful. He did not sign up to be married to a woman with a mental illness. I was diagnosed 7 years into our marriage. He has stuck…

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Trauma Llama ding-dong

I had an emotionally-psychologically abusive childhood. I am in a good place now, physically and mentally. My family, husband and children are wonderful. I feel safe when I am home. I am seeing a new therapist. I have had one appointment. It went well. She has experience with trauma, that is why I sought her…

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B is for Belonging

I struggle with feeling like I belong anywhere. My favorite times have been when I felt included in a group and not ignored. At work, often I am not included in potlucks or parties. Maybe it is because I work part time and people don’t know me well.  I don’t mind. I do wish I…

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My Story of Forgiveness

Originally published PsychCentral https://blogs.psychcentral.com/triple-winner/2017/07/my-story-of-forgiveness-and-mental-illness/ My mother came to visit recently. We have a past issue between us, that I have not been able to forgive. It has to do with when my brother was very symptomatic with a mental illness during my teen years. I have avoided talking about it. She always seems to want…

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Learning to Forgive

I was recently working on a blog post about forgiving my mother about past resentments. (I will post it here soon). When I showed it to a few people they made comments that it was too harsh and that I sounded bitter. I had attempted to find compassion, but somehow in trying to explain “my…

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Suicidal Thoughts, Depression and 13 Reasons Why

Originally posted on PsychCentral https://blogs.psychcentral.com/triple-winner/2017/06/suicidal-thoughts-depression-and-13-reasons-why/ I watched “13 Reasons Why” recently and it got me thinking about my own suicidal thoughts. (I am trying not to spoil it too much, but if you are waiting to watch it you may want to hold off reading) I was an unhappy teen and had some suicidal thoughts…

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A pause from automatic thinking

My husband was grumpy and moody over the weekend. I automatically go to being a frightened child thinking I did something wrong and am 100% to blame. That I am guilty and have to fix things. I started assuming what could be wrong. I thought maybe he was resentful about housework, so I took care…

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Symbiosis- Daily Prompt

Symbiosis When I read the word, my first thought was ‘lichen’, the part fungus, part algae that grows on rocks, i knew they were somehow interdependent. But, when I actually investigated (googled) I found the word means a relationship between organisms that live closely together. So yes lichen, but, much more. Dependence on each other…

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