It has been a long time since I last wrote.  I got certified as a peer support specialist but full time work was too much for me.  I requested fewer hours and my psychiatrist wrote a note but my employer refused. I felt like I was either working or recovering and got very depressed.  I attempted sui but except for a trip to the er and a week long hospital stay, nothing happened.

I did 2 1/2 months of a PHP. It was okay. I did tms again and it helped but it seems to have worn off. I tried going back to work but nothing had changed and I got depressed again so I stopped working. I am applying for expedited reinstatement of SSDI but I don’t know if they are processing with shutdown.

I am looking into ketamine nasal spray treatment (spravato). My insurance approved it after months but I don’t have an appointment yet.  It is done in psychiatrist office and you can’t drive after.

I have not been doing much. My sleep is iffy and I am tired often.  I got akasithia from a medication and then had restless legs from another. I was really uncomfortable.

I have been playing with AI making pictures and memes.  I find it is a way to express myself, but I know there are downsides.