I don’t know how to do therapy

I am seeing a new therapist. I picked her because she has experience treating patients who have experienced trauma. At my first appointment, I told her at the very end of the session that I want to delve into the past because it affects me still. It took me the whole time to get up…

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I value my Family

Continuing the alphabet game with the letter F. I have issues with my family of origin, but my little family (husband and 2 children + our dog) is very important to me. Thankfully, we are all doing well. I worried about how having a mental illness would affect my children, but they are grown now…

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Energy

I wish I had more energy. I try to make the most of it when I do. Usually, I am fatigued. I have sleep apnea, which is helped by a dental appliance but I don’t feel rested in the morning. I also take a number of medications, including an antipsychotic. The ones I tried have…

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D is for Dog

Raider, my walking antidepressant helps keep me sane.  He needs walks so I have to get out. He is someone to come home to until the rest of my family gets here. He follows me around, wants to be in the same room as me. He is cuddly and cute. He has his own issues…

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Trauma Llama ding-dong

I had an emotionally-psychologically abusive childhood. I am in a good place now, physically and mentally. My family, husband and children are wonderful. I feel safe when I am home. I am seeing a new therapist. I have had one appointment. It went well. She has experience with trauma, that is why I sought her…

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B is for Belonging

I struggle with feeling like I belong anywhere. My favorite times have been when I felt included in a group and not ignored. At work, often I am not included in potlucks or parties. Maybe it is because I work part time and people don’t know me well.  I don’t mind. I do wish I…

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Alphabet game

I love this idea by Janet “endless rivers” https://endless-rivers.com/2019/08/26/the-alphabet-game/ I have not written anything lately and this may help me get back to it. I will be going through the alphabet, starting with A, writing about things I like or experience. Feel free to join in but please credit endless rivers for the idea. Ambivalence…

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